Tuesday, December 18, 2012

what I meant by "vegetation"

No more school!

([except precalculus] until next month)

I had no idea it'd been since September since my last post. But thinking about it, that makes sense. September was the month my classes started. Until maybe halfway through October, I worked 25 hours a week, doing school and sleeping- only those two activities and not much of the latter- and then I broke down and cut my work by 7-10 hours a week. And I have my sanity, a 98.5 (something like that) % in my math class, and what I sincerely hope is an A in my chemistry class because if I spent all those hours on that binder for nothing I will be severely disappointed, to show for it.







So anyway. This post is supposed to be about my awesome day of relaxation.
About two weeks ago, I was running ragged. Mom told me I should plan to take a day of rest, so I did. Today was that day.


A few pictures:


Lemon Poppyseed Muffins


Strung the Christmas Cards... that one may not fly, especially if we don't get more cards! 



Wrapped presents




Made a random but cute bow... and took a crappy picture of it.

Also, pajamas until 2, a long hot bath, 2 chapters of Les Miserables (I finally get to read it!), Bible study, and now ice cream and Dr. Who documentaries. Good day.



Monday, September 17, 2012

last week/this week

Quick update:
The past three weeks, I have worked Mon.-Fri. Since I pretty much never (ever) worked five days in a row before this time, it was kind of crazy. This week, I'm not working until Thursday! Emancipation.

So anyway. This week, I believe I'll be able to easily stay on top of my homework. I'm trying to get organized as far as that goes and stay ahead of the game a bit. Last week- working 23 hours, spending 7ish hours in class, 7 or 8 doing homework, and another 5 or so doing church things- was very hard.

Going to the doctor tomorrow to try and find out if I have hypothyroidism. Yippee.

I have to go finish my chemistry homework for tonight's class.

Monday, September 3, 2012

summer 2012

This summer, I visited West Virginia, Massachusetts (twice), and Vermont. I intended to write three separate posts about three different trips, but that's just not going to happen at this point. So instead, I'll write out some highlights/most special moments of each trip.

West Virginia:
  • Seeing and spending [very little] time with Megan and Katelyn for the first time in 15 months. For dearest friends, that's really too long. We went shopping and to dinner- we didn't spend a ton of time together because they were planning to visit in a couple of weeks.
  • Seeing my family. I didn't get to see everybody, but it was so nice to visit with the ones who did come!
  • MOUNTAINS!! I love the mountains more than I love the ocean. One day, I hope, I will live among them again. (no, I have no plans to move back to West Virginia. But I hope that my most permanent home will be surrounded by mountains.)
  • Listening to Papaw talk about he and Mamaw, places they'd been, and things they'd done. If you've ever met my grandfather, you'd know that he isn't much of a conversationalist- and certainly not one to talk about the past, except in funny anecdotes about cars or things gone wrong. It was SO special to get to sit on the porch with him and listen to him talk about these sweet things.
  • Seeing Mamaw and Papaw interact with each other. My grandparents fought a lot when I was little- they were often yelling at each other. But now, especially since Mamaw's health has gone down-hill, they are much more tender and caring with each other. It's a blessing to see.

Megan, Katelyn, and Matt's visit:
  • FINALLY staying up way too late with my best friend and talking about everything. A girl can only hold it in for so long.
  •  Spending three hours jumping up and down in the ocean with three wonderful friends. 
  • The night of Zoe's birthday party, playing Pit with Zoe, Malia, Megan, Katelyn, and Matt. It was amazing and SO much fun!
  • Showing the girls where we live.

Missions trip:
  • Spending time with EVERYONE! 
  • Seeing my West Virginian friends getting to know and love my Massachusetts/New Hampshire friends, and vice versa.
  • The night we just started singing in the dining hall at snack time- and everyone joined in. Sweet beyond words.
  • Hearing Yaret (one of my little campers) repeat the memory verse I taught over and over and over again- to himself and to me. Psalm 119:11: "Thy word have I hidden in mine heart, that I might not sin against Thee."
  • My campers calling me "M(r)s. Carrot." 
  • This is probably the best: This year, Megan and I had a camper named Luis. Luis is a very special little boy, who is loving once you get to know him, but who is is almost incapable of sitting still and has trouble following a lot of rules. And yet, hard as he was to deal with, it was wonderful to see the change in him from last year- when he was hitting his counselors as hard as he could, shouting curses at our leader, and making breaks for escape from the group whenever he could.
    Last year, I had a girl named Dajah who was beautiful, quiet, shy, loving, and responsible. I didn't know whether or not she knew God, but she was special. She is a little mother to her younger siblings, and she does a good job- loving them, taking care of them. She was and is a joy to be around.
    Last year, I also had a little trouble-boy named Eric. Eric, like Luis, had many attention and obedience issues. He couldn't sit still, couldn't obey, had to be separated from the group or taken out of Bible times on multiple days. But I loved him. He, for some reason, grew attached to me for the week (last year), and I to him. I remember sitting in a field with him while the other kids were making a craft and trying to talk to him and help him somehow. It was at that time that he looked at me and said, "God doesn't love me."
    This year, Luis, Dajah, and Eric were the honor campers. There are usually one or two honor campers, and the main requirement is that you know Christ as your Savior. Dajah was rewarded for her wonderful behavior and example of Christlikeness every day, Luis was rewarded for his amazing change from last year, and Eric was rewarded for his exemplary behavior, wonderful attitude, and, last but not least, change since last year- when, he said, he received Christ.
    As you can imagine, I was in tears as my sweet campers stood up and received praise. It was such a blessing to see what God had wrought.

Vermont:
  • Being in the mountains.
  • Hiking.
  • Watching the sun rise over the moutains.
  • Spending an afternoon with a book in a paddle boat on the little pond we could walk to. 
  • Seeing my Great-Aunt Barbara, her husband Paul, my mom's cousin Chuck and his wife Cheryl.
  • Relaxing in general after a crazy, not-a-spare-moment summer.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Jesse Edwards

Jesse Edwards was my great-grandfather- my mother's father's father.

Jesse had a mother, Edith, a father, Fred, and three or four siblings- Fred, Caroline, Ethel, and probably one other. Fred and Ethel were older than he was, and Caroline was younger.

Grampa was talking about Great-Grampa today. This post is rough and lacks transitions, mainly because these things were not said in this order or even all at once. But here are some of the things Grampa told us:

Jesse was probably 5 when his mother died. He and his sister Caroline probably lived with the Walkers (their mother's parents) for a couple of years after that. Later, they lived with their father, and Jesse, in Grampa's words, "would tend the fires and such, and Caroline would take care of the house, and their father would go off to work."

More of Grampa's words:
"Fred Edwards was a small man, smaller even than my father. He used to wear Caroline's [his daughter's] shoes- he would break them in for her. [Mom and Aunt Gail tell me that my great-great-aunt Caroline wore no bigger than a woman's size six shoe). He would walk to work every day. Someone said once that they remembered lying awake in bed every morning as a child and listening to Fred Edwards singing or whistling on his way to work."
"He (Fred) worked in a hay barn. One day he scraped his back on a rusty nail that was sticking out of the wall, and it became a cancerous [cankerous? It's sometimes difficult to understand Grampa] wound that killed him."

"My father was 14 when Grampa died. My father was probably a fairly wild boy, and Aunt Ethel [married by then] sent a letter after their father died saying that Caroline could come live with her, but she wouldn't take my father.
"Pa was not a terribly forgiving man. He probably never spoke to Ethel again. She would come visit, and he would say 'Get out of my way. You get back in that car right now.'"
I don't know the specifics of this situation. I assume it was when Jess was an adult. I don't know whether it happened once or multiple times. But the whole situation must have been such a heartache for everyone!
Grampa Jesse went to work right after his father died.
Grampa, eyes filling with tears, told us that "Pa's boss said that when Pa was 14 years old, he was a better worker than most men."

Grampa Jesse married Edith Fields, my Grampa's mother. His brother Fred married Edith's sister Elsie, and then Grampa Jesse's sister Caroline married Edith and Elsie's brother Clinton. 
Clint and Jesse worked at the same company- Chandler Mill. Grampa Jesse used to give Clint a ride to work every day. Eventually, Clint got a car of his own- a new one. He then told Jesse "I'll never ride in that old rattle-trap of yours again!" And Grampa Jesse said "You sure won't!" At some later date, Clint came to Grampa Jesse needing a ride. Grampa Jesse gave him one- and a very hard time of it.

Back on the note of Grampa Jesse's hard work: "You know, back when A & P was king, my father had a job where he made five dollars a day. That was really big money to make back then. We used to go to the grocery store, and five dollars would fill the back of the car to overflowing."


Disjointed, but (to me) worth thinking about and posting.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

books and yumminess

First of all,
yuck. I do not like the new available templates. In fact, I quite miss my blog a few changes ago... I wish I could get that back.

Aside from that, though, this summer is splendid.
I went to Christian Youth In Action camp June 20th-30th. It was amazing. But I think I will save that for another blog post. I like to think about something like this for a long time before I talk about it. I just like to have time to draw my own conclusions, make my own decisions about the experience and what's going to come from it, before I share a ton about it with other people.

I've been home for a week, and it's been a wonderful one. Working, cooking, knitting, and reading- lots and lots of reading. I've read All Wound Up (I started that one before I left for camp), Lady Susan, and Anansi Boys since I got home. I'm also 70 pages or so into the ubiquitous The Hunger Games. All very different, and I've enjoyed all of them completely. I'm also rather pleased with myself for reading these in one week, because it's been a very long time since I've read even one book in a week.
I think I'm going to read Nineteen Eighty-Four next.

Today has been a long, good, productive day. I got up at 8, walked the dog, went to the library, and went to band practice. I came home and broke the powdered milk canister while making myself a sandwich right before work- Dad kindly helped me clean it up so I would be ready for work on time. I went to work, felt like I was there forever, and came home. I made beans and rice for dinner and it turned out yummy. Then, with a lot of dish-doing and listening to Anansi Boys (I finished it this evening) throughout and in between, I made whoopie pies. Dozens of them (at least 2 dozen. I didn't really count). We're having a potluck after church tomorrow, and one option for dessert is going to be some of the best whoopie pies I've ever had (due not to my cooking abilities, but to the wonderful recipe). So yeah. 
I was in the kitchen for around 4 hours.
It feels like a bit more than 14 hours since I got up.

I could probably go on, but then I'd only degenerate further into babbling than I already have.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

knitting, reading, summer, school

You remember the kingdom gloves I posted about a few months back? Well, around the time I posted the pattern I started the gloves. I got through part of the cuff and stuck them in a bag and forgot about them. Monday night, I pulled them out of said bag, ripped out what I'd knit (it was going to be near impossible to find my place in that crazy, 9-page-long pattern), and started over. So far, this is my progress:


Yippee. It's so fun!
Sometime before the end of 2013 I hope to have tackled my two dream knitting projects: a lace shawl (I'm currently looking through the 2,000 + patterns on Ravelry to find the most gorgeous one) and a sweater (I know exactly the one I'm making). 


That and working is pretty much what I've been doing this week. I'm workin' all I can over the next couple of weeks, picking up every hour offered to me, because between June 20th and the end of August, the longest period of time I'll be home and available to work for is 11 or 12 days. I'm taking a total of 5 trips this summer, and I'll also be taking time off from work when Megan and her dear ones come up for a couple weeks.
I'm really looking forward to this crazy summer.
My trips include a camping trip with the church; two camps in Douglas, Mass., for one of which I'll be a camper and the other a counselor- also with/sponsored by the church; a trip to West Virginia to see family (hallelujah chorus, please); and a family vacation at a remote cabin in Vermont.

Shortly after returning from the last trip of the summer, I'll be starting my first ever real college class. See, I've made some decisions regarding school. There's this community college in Porstmouth, Great Bay, which has an amazing two year nursing program. At the end of the program, you're ready to take the test to get your RN- and their students have extremely high rates of success when it comes to passing said test. The only problems are 1. I can't get in this year (I'd hoped to, but I missed the deadline- and I'm not eligible because I'm still technically going to be in high school next year and I can't take my GED/quit being in high school until I'm 18) and 2. It's pretty competitive. Because it's basically the fast track to becoming a nurse, there are 300+ applicants and only 56 spots. So I'm trying to get an edge/lighten the heavy course load that I would have if I did get in by taking a couple of classes that are part the program. They'd count towards my degree if I did get in.
So fall 2012 semester, I'm taking pre-caculus at home, a math class at Great Bay, and a chemistry class at Exeter High School. Although my SAT scores for math were fairly high, I still want to take the test again and bring them up higher because that gives me a better chance of getting into the nursing program in fall 2013. I'm taking the math class at GB first because I figure the more math I do before I retake the SATs, the better I'll do on the test.
So that was a bunch of probably boring and unwanted information on my school plans. But I'm excited about it!

This past week, I finished A Tale of Two Cities. Finally. It wasn't that I didn't enjoy it, it's just that I haven't had a ton of time to read lately. So I'd been reading it for ten-fifteen minutes at a time on my breaks at work, and it took me a couple months to get through it (I read the last third of the book last Saturday- a lovely rainy day). But I'm done! Two thumbs up. That Dickens guy... He could really write.
So now, as part of my mission to read a greater number of classic books, I'm reading A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court. I just started it this morning, and I'm not far in at all. I shall let you know how that goes (maybe. To be honest, I may just space out and not blog again for a couple of months).
By the way, my Nook + Project Gutenberg = awesomeness.

I'm done.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

answered prayers.

God's been answering prayers lately.
The other night, I was in bed, trying to go to sleep, sort of singing a praise song in my head, and this idea or image of me sitting with God and singing to Him occurred to me. And my reaction was, "That's ridiculous. Who are you to sing to Him, sit with Him like that?" I just felt so unworthy- being in His presence, in His perfect light, would expose so much ugliness in me that there's no way I could be relaxed and happy and peaceful and pure sitting with Him like that. But I remembered my peace in the knowledge that Jesus has cleansed me and God has adopted me. Jesus loves me as much as God loves Jesus? Of course He will forgive me. One day, He will cleanse me and take me into the presence of God the Father, and I will be loved and accepted as a child. I can hardly imagine. Remembering these things makes me so glad.
I began to pray that God would wash me clean. That I could start the next day freshly, purely, seeking Him. And I would make mistakes, obviously, but I prayed that He would help me see when I made a mistake and correct it.
Then I realized that I've been praying that for a month or so now, and it's been happening.
God has shown me some major problems in my life. Honestly? I am a self-centered, prideful, stiff-necked and foolish girl. I just keep seeing traits in myself that I want to make disappear. And I can't. But God can. I've been asking for help to change these things. I can't say that I've really felt all the change I wanted yet, but I feel like I'm going in the right direction.

This post is disorganized. But I'm trying to be honest here and I'm afraid if I try to make it flow better it won't be as real. Maybe that doesn't make any sense. I definitely need to go to bed, at any rate. But yeah.

God has an overwhelming love for me, and He is going to make me beautiful one day.

P.S.: Pray that I would know what to do with this love.